Even the Cats are Meowing

Assalamualaikum wbt. :)

What's up everyone. Next Thursday I'll have my MS assessment. So yeah basically in a marathon to finish all the lecture notes. Like what I did during previous assessment. I still have tonnes of load to be finished. Yet too many tests are upcoming such as the tocie ( english test for those who got band 3 for muet ) and bola tampar also got test. They want us to hit the ball and make sure it fits the correct position. Full marks will be given to those hit the target. I'm not so good in bola tampar but I can play. I can hit and get the ball to the other side of court.

Once I used to get attached to da'wah thing. I used to being brainwashed when we had our usrah. But the brainwashing is not like a torture or something, it is something that made you feel really low and deserves nothing but punishment because of the bad things you did. Allah, somehow I don't know why I feel very empty after those moments had passed. :( When I read about their journey and their feelings on this particular thing, I feel envious and I wanted to join them. However, I know there is still many other doors that can lead me to this. InshaAllah. I'll always pray for them.

For me, their presence have such a high value to me. They are precious to me. They cause me to open my eyes wide open and thought about Islam. Practices what you should practice and others. Oh. Alhamdulillah. And now, even my surrounding friends, they practice Islam. They do what Islam, what Allah SWT and Rasulullah SAW ask to do. Indeed, Allah has sent me so many things through them. I think and I thought of it as it comes from Allah. All the good things, the bad things, they have valued in it which I think Allah wants me this way, Allah wants me that way, etc.

I am very keen to have knowledge. Who doesn't right? If can, I want to know every bits and bite of any knowledge in the world. I just like to have the knowledge. I am. To some extent, sometimes I feel like I'm so greedy but at the same time the spirit is not there. The enthusiasm is absent. The feeling of getting new knowledge disappear. Apparently, human being is just a human being. They have their own ups and downs. High spirit and low spirit. Happy time and moody time.

And me, I am in the middle of the ocean wave. Being carried by the wave, however, I have faith in Him. May He leads me to the right destination. Will never stop asking help from Him. Indeed.

:)