deep inside

I cried again
Being the most ordinary human being
You know why you're being tested
You know Allah is testing you
To see your iman
To see where you will return to
To see if you move forward or not

In the eyes of Allah
I cried because I love them dearly
That I cannot express my love for them
That the choice to make
Is not them
Because Allah's love is even more for me
Allah's love is greatest
Allah's love is pure

I seek Allah everytime I felt down
Everytime I angry
Everytime I miss someone
Everytime people ignore me

The best attention that I want to is
Allah's attention
I need no others
When He knows you love other more than Him
He took all of that
He tested you
He wants you to return to Him

And Allah is the only one we return to

it's december

Perjalananku semakin cerah.
cerah sebab aku tahu kenapa aku ada di atas muka bumi ni.
kekuatan yg ada pada diri ini,
datangnya drpd Dia.
aku menjadi lebih kuat dari sebelumnya.
sbb aku ada Dia.
Al-quran dan Al-hadis.
panduan hidup.
manual kehidupan.
seperti handphone.
andai tiada manualnya,
mana mungkin kita tahu
macam mana nak guna.
begitu juga kehidupan
Al-quran dan Al-hadis.
mengarah kita ke arah
yang sepatutnya.
which is akhirat
dunia yg sementara
penuh dgn suka ria,
riang ria tawa manusia
tapi di sebalik hati aku,
andai nya semua tersedar
adakah semua akan seperti itu lagi
atau menjadi serius menuju pengakhiran
arghhh kadang-kadang
ingin bergelak sakan
tapi,
setiap masa
setiap minit
setiap saat
semuanya utk Dia
kadang-kadang terlalai
istighfar pengubat hati yang duka lara

:'(

membawa manusia kepadaNya.
sambil juga membawa diri kpd Nya juga.

hi Hanis

Hehehe.

what a weird post.
i dedicate this to hanis amirah.
why her?
cause i think she's the only one
who took her time
maybe not much
but still she did
to read my post
because I didn't
read yours hanis.
nnt aku baca yaaa
hehhe
ok macam tah pape pulak
hi hanis.
lama tak jumpa.
sihatkah?
UM okay? haha
study okay?
hopefully all goes well for you
and be close to Allah all the time okayy?
:*
jaga diri jaga iman
;)

8 months ago

Assalamualaikum and good day everyone.

8 months ago.
why is it like that in the first place.
because 8 months ago,
i lived in this world,
without knowing
or maybe purposely acting
that i lived for nothing
when actually that
2:30 and 51:56 have been forgotten
but now, please,
Allah,
hold me tightly,
loose me never,
to the jannah all the way,
to go together and not alone,
forgive all my sins,
intentionally or unintentionally,
for i am nothing without you.
iman, please be fixed and go higher and higher,
if you're down, still
try to be higher up
but when you're up there
dont be riak,
Allah does not like it
I live for the sake of Allah
from Allah I came,
to Allah I return.

jazakillahu khoir. *hugs and kiss*

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Salam.

I've left my blog like months. Sorry little diary. Alhamdulillah. For now, i still can update my blog. I still can type the keyboard still can think. All these nikmat from Allah. Alhamdulillah. I just finish browsing through my old blog. It is Ms Cubeaddicted. You guys cant read the blog though cause im privating the setting. Too many good memory and a bad one too in it. I wanted to search for this one kakak actually. But she's nowhere to be found. I followed her since PASUM. And now i have forgotten her name. I tried to recall her name. But it just not appear. It just doesn't come out. I wonder how is her life right now. Maybe already has a second children? Wherever she is, im praying that her life is good not only in this world but also in the hereafter.

I've passed my second year pro examination one. Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal. The even brighter side that i want to share is, ive join a circle again. This time with new perspective with new method of thinking, with new environment, inshaAllah, i'll try to grab and as soon as possible to let all people in this world know that Islam is beautiful. Islam has a paradise that is waiting for us to enter. Islam has Allah and Muhammad SAW as our God and prophet. Islam is beautiful. And i want to share it with you guys.

Just know that to enter jannah is easy and to enter hell is also easy. Dan sesungguhnya segala-galanya mudah bagi Allah. Ask him. And He will be ashamed to not granting his hamba's wish.

Allah, for giving me the faith. For leading me to the right path, for not leaving me alone. Thank you wa Alhamdulillah. Sesungguhnya hidupku, matiku, ibadahku hanyalah keranaMu ya Allah.

To murobbi ku, to ex-murabbi ku, to the usrahmate, to the ex-usrahmate, to the daurahmate, to the ex-daurahmate, Allah is giving me the bright path because He let me see the good in you. And indeed He knows best for me. InshaAllah.



Till then. Rasa best pulakkk menaip guna IPADoonggg. HHaha

It's April

;)

Alhamdulillah. We're now in the fourth month of the year. Any significant? Haha. Obviously a no for me. However thinking more of it, hmm, am getting closer for my big exam which is Professional Exam I. It's o June. Did I mention before? Hmm. yes I did i think.

I don't know what to update. Just wanted to say, my holiday is about to end. Another 5 to 6 days left. Hmm. I feel like my life has been filled with some good stuff recently. Like it or not, I just love it. :)) With His guidance, oh Allah don't make me go astray. Amin. Lead me in right path. Amin. Make me strong.

Till then people. Some of my friends right now are battling in fight to pass the exam. Dear friends, may Allah ease you guys. InshaAllah. I know you guys can do it!! :))

*ps : I shall have listed out the subject that I should read. so that, there will be like guideline for me. so here it is*

First year, in first sem, modules are cells and excitable tissue (C&ET), general anatomy & embryology (GA&E), basic pharmacology (BP), biochemical, gene expression, human genetics, basic pathology, microbiology, parasitology. In Second sem, haematology, immunology, cardiovascular system (CVS), respiratory system (RS), Gastrointestinal tract (GIT) system and urinary system (US). 

Second year, first sem : endocrine system, reproductive system, musculoskeletal system, central nervous system (CNS), public health, epidemiology and medical statistics. In second sem , which is coming week, so i still have no idea what we're gonna study. so basically need to read the modules I've listed.

May Allah ease me and you. Amin. InshaAllah. :)

till then people. Salam.

Happy Friday

So, today is Friday . I have another 2 weeks to spent and chillin' at home. Alhamdulillah for the holiday. For the rest that I get before things get busy. Before professional exam is coming. Oh yeah, I guess I should be ready for the exam. to read and understand again the facts . the exam is on Jun 9th,10th,11th. So, wish me luck here. :)))

Yesterday was the day where all form 5-er around country received what I call SPM result. SPM. ahhh already leaving that behind years ago. How long has it been since the day I got my result. It's been 4 years back. How time flies. I was in Semashur back then. Before that, I'd been in SMK Batu Unjur till form 4 then switch to boarding school. Allahu Rabbi. His plan is the greatest and yeah, the good old memories appearing right now. (even the bad one too)

My SPM result I shall say was quite good and excellent and Alhamdulillah right now, I've become and enter, pursueing my study in what I wanted the most, medic. Strangely though that my mind wasn't thinking of taking medic in the first place when I was much younger. But soon when form 4 came and I learnt bio, that's where I think I want to study medic because it's all about human. Back then, even in bio we have to learn about trees, the osmosis inside the leaf, the adherence etc. I thought that was so dry to study about. ye know, like to learn them, they are not moving yet we still learn them. If you get what I mean. So starting from that, I have always dream to be a doctor because I want to study about human. (there's a story about human here)

Little did I know that being into medicine is not to study about human only but you also have to know the right decision. (in fact, many things will you learn while being in this field) The life of people that we treated is in our hand. Wrong steps or any mistakes could lead to a real end of the world for the patient or could take them to even higher risk. Allahu Rabbi. In this journey, I shall know that I'm getting even closer to HIM. His creations are simply amazing. Everyday, I'm dealing with His creation. SubhanaAllah.

I still remember vividly how one of my lecturer shared with us how she could become a pathologist. It was all because she felt really amazing and simply amazed by Allah's creation when she saw and think that "mashaAllah, simply because of changes in one cell, it could get people to be sick" She told us how amazed she became and that's why she pursue into pathology field. It's like she likes it when she see the cell under microscope and appreciate for what it is.

Quite interesting, isn't it? I told you I have some story on human. Last week I was in my first-time-after-such-a-long-time gathering. A sis who was at that time gave the content, she suddenly asked us. Do you know what is human made up of. For Allah's sake, that's even the first time I thought. Okay maybe not the first time. But hey, the think is, what made me even got the headache is that, when we shouted out our answer like "from setitis air mani, then into segumpal darah", some got answered "from tanah" however the answers don't satisfied her. Then, since I'm the only one taking medicine, she kinda bash me laaa , like, here got one person study  human but don't know how the human is created. *relax readers, relax. I felt like whatttt. huhu. Really,  the moral here is doesn't mean you study medic , you will know everything about human. :( got to learn more. There's more than this in Quran.

That's really an eye opener for me actually. Then she told us again. The answer is inside Quran. There is answer here. So, she told us, the answer is in Surah Al-Isra' and surah Al-Hijr. I've indeed look for the answers in these two surah. Alhamdulillah I found the answer in the latter. Somehow I have to search the answer again surah Al-Isra'. The exact answer is there. Well, I have a question on this basis and should ask this further to that sis. InshaAllah in the next gathering.

Ohh I felt like I should share with you guys what have I gained from the meeting. :))

Basically, we've been told of the downs of the Ummah. How the recent concert tragedy had really big impact on us. The death (may Allah forgive them), they were part of our relatives. One of the death even is as the same age as me. Allahu Rabbi, may Allah protect us from whatever harm coming into our lives. Then, the sis also got to share with us video in youtube . The video took about 30 mins. Ahhh I forgot what is the title of it but generally, it tells us about ummah in the whole world. How is my relative doing over there in Palestin, Mesir, Syria, Algeria and many more countries where the ummah is Muslim and they are suffering.

This kind of video may have plenty times played in front of our eyes, but what I'm getting here is what should we do as muslim to help our sisters and brothers. We, indeed have huge responsibility. Hopefully me myself could carry it out in the right way. inshaAllah. you too dear readers. :))

till then. I wrote really. really long. and I wonder if ever one of you finish reading this. okay.

got to go now. hopefully. I got to share more beneficial things to you guys. inshaAllah. :))