Happy Friday

So, today is Friday . I have another 2 weeks to spent and chillin' at home. Alhamdulillah for the holiday. For the rest that I get before things get busy. Before professional exam is coming. Oh yeah, I guess I should be ready for the exam. to read and understand again the facts . the exam is on Jun 9th,10th,11th. So, wish me luck here. :)))

Yesterday was the day where all form 5-er around country received what I call SPM result. SPM. ahhh already leaving that behind years ago. How long has it been since the day I got my result. It's been 4 years back. How time flies. I was in Semashur back then. Before that, I'd been in SMK Batu Unjur till form 4 then switch to boarding school. Allahu Rabbi. His plan is the greatest and yeah, the good old memories appearing right now. (even the bad one too)

My SPM result I shall say was quite good and excellent and Alhamdulillah right now, I've become and enter, pursueing my study in what I wanted the most, medic. Strangely though that my mind wasn't thinking of taking medic in the first place when I was much younger. But soon when form 4 came and I learnt bio, that's where I think I want to study medic because it's all about human. Back then, even in bio we have to learn about trees, the osmosis inside the leaf, the adherence etc. I thought that was so dry to study about. ye know, like to learn them, they are not moving yet we still learn them. If you get what I mean. So starting from that, I have always dream to be a doctor because I want to study about human. (there's a story about human here)

Little did I know that being into medicine is not to study about human only but you also have to know the right decision. (in fact, many things will you learn while being in this field) The life of people that we treated is in our hand. Wrong steps or any mistakes could lead to a real end of the world for the patient or could take them to even higher risk. Allahu Rabbi. In this journey, I shall know that I'm getting even closer to HIM. His creations are simply amazing. Everyday, I'm dealing with His creation. SubhanaAllah.

I still remember vividly how one of my lecturer shared with us how she could become a pathologist. It was all because she felt really amazing and simply amazed by Allah's creation when she saw and think that "mashaAllah, simply because of changes in one cell, it could get people to be sick" She told us how amazed she became and that's why she pursue into pathology field. It's like she likes it when she see the cell under microscope and appreciate for what it is.

Quite interesting, isn't it? I told you I have some story on human. Last week I was in my first-time-after-such-a-long-time gathering. A sis who was at that time gave the content, she suddenly asked us. Do you know what is human made up of. For Allah's sake, that's even the first time I thought. Okay maybe not the first time. But hey, the think is, what made me even got the headache is that, when we shouted out our answer like "from setitis air mani, then into segumpal darah", some got answered "from tanah" however the answers don't satisfied her. Then, since I'm the only one taking medicine, she kinda bash me laaa , like, here got one person study  human but don't know how the human is created. *relax readers, relax. I felt like whatttt. huhu. Really,  the moral here is doesn't mean you study medic , you will know everything about human. :( got to learn more. There's more than this in Quran.

That's really an eye opener for me actually. Then she told us again. The answer is inside Quran. There is answer here. So, she told us, the answer is in Surah Al-Isra' and surah Al-Hijr. I've indeed look for the answers in these two surah. Alhamdulillah I found the answer in the latter. Somehow I have to search the answer again surah Al-Isra'. The exact answer is there. Well, I have a question on this basis and should ask this further to that sis. InshaAllah in the next gathering.

Ohh I felt like I should share with you guys what have I gained from the meeting. :))

Basically, we've been told of the downs of the Ummah. How the recent concert tragedy had really big impact on us. The death (may Allah forgive them), they were part of our relatives. One of the death even is as the same age as me. Allahu Rabbi, may Allah protect us from whatever harm coming into our lives. Then, the sis also got to share with us video in youtube . The video took about 30 mins. Ahhh I forgot what is the title of it but generally, it tells us about ummah in the whole world. How is my relative doing over there in Palestin, Mesir, Syria, Algeria and many more countries where the ummah is Muslim and they are suffering.

This kind of video may have plenty times played in front of our eyes, but what I'm getting here is what should we do as muslim to help our sisters and brothers. We, indeed have huge responsibility. Hopefully me myself could carry it out in the right way. inshaAllah. you too dear readers. :))

till then. I wrote really. really long. and I wonder if ever one of you finish reading this. okay.

got to go now. hopefully. I got to share more beneficial things to you guys. inshaAllah. :))

Bola Tampar

Assalamualaikum kawan-kawan. :)

I just finish my last class with Sir Arshad of Bola Tampar. Hooooooo.. Okay, I join this bola tampar because this is kokurikulum that we have to take. Of course there is many other sports I can join but the fate is, I ended up in bola tampar. Alhamdulillah. This choice is indeed the best choice i've choosen. Sir Arshad, he is really very understanding all of us. Though we do little bit here and there of mistakes but he is still cool and yeahh AWESOME. Allah led me to this club and Allah too let me feels all this feeling of joyous and grateful and fun and so many things. Since I have quite some free time, (my class just now is only at 8-9am, and today we finish early.weeeeee) I got to update this thing since the internet is speedy his way to me, hahah and now, relaxingly updating the blog about it. :))))))) *can you see the smile there. A lot isn't it? That shows my feeling of excitedness. perhaps it's more than that. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. :)

Okay, now, my roommate is here. guess will update later since I'm a bit shy to update my blog in front of her. hehe. Senyap-senyap sudehhh. :)

Even the Cats are Meowing

Assalamualaikum wbt. :)

What's up everyone. Next Thursday I'll have my MS assessment. So yeah basically in a marathon to finish all the lecture notes. Like what I did during previous assessment. I still have tonnes of load to be finished. Yet too many tests are upcoming such as the tocie ( english test for those who got band 3 for muet ) and bola tampar also got test. They want us to hit the ball and make sure it fits the correct position. Full marks will be given to those hit the target. I'm not so good in bola tampar but I can play. I can hit and get the ball to the other side of court.

Once I used to get attached to da'wah thing. I used to being brainwashed when we had our usrah. But the brainwashing is not like a torture or something, it is something that made you feel really low and deserves nothing but punishment because of the bad things you did. Allah, somehow I don't know why I feel very empty after those moments had passed. :( When I read about their journey and their feelings on this particular thing, I feel envious and I wanted to join them. However, I know there is still many other doors that can lead me to this. InshaAllah. I'll always pray for them.

For me, their presence have such a high value to me. They are precious to me. They cause me to open my eyes wide open and thought about Islam. Practices what you should practice and others. Oh. Alhamdulillah. And now, even my surrounding friends, they practice Islam. They do what Islam, what Allah SWT and Rasulullah SAW ask to do. Indeed, Allah has sent me so many things through them. I think and I thought of it as it comes from Allah. All the good things, the bad things, they have valued in it which I think Allah wants me this way, Allah wants me that way, etc.

I am very keen to have knowledge. Who doesn't right? If can, I want to know every bits and bite of any knowledge in the world. I just like to have the knowledge. I am. To some extent, sometimes I feel like I'm so greedy but at the same time the spirit is not there. The enthusiasm is absent. The feeling of getting new knowledge disappear. Apparently, human being is just a human being. They have their own ups and downs. High spirit and low spirit. Happy time and moody time.

And me, I am in the middle of the ocean wave. Being carried by the wave, however, I have faith in Him. May He leads me to the right destination. Will never stop asking help from Him. Indeed.

:)

Is it Necessary?

Assalamualaikum wbt!

So far, I've settled down my things in about 30-40%. Alhamdulillah. Still got lot of things to be packed. Hmmm.. I wanted to buy some other things too like sweater, sport shoes, socks, some blouses. Do you guys think it is wasteful to spend money on that? I haven't tell this one thing to you guys. I want to start wearing blouses to lectures. I don't want to fully wear baju kurung for the whole week. I want to have variation in my closet. But then, in order to wear blouses, I have to buy some first, since I don't have any. Okay tipu. It's not that I don't have at all but only 1 or 2. Arghhh, why do I feel like I don't have to tell you guys this. Really not matter to you guys pun. :/ Changes is good right. It's just that in the last two semesters I wore baju kurung to class almost everyday. Yeah, I wore baju kurung everyday except on some Friday where I have to go back home by train. Only on that day will I wear clothes other than baju kurung. Some more the clothes that I wear is a muslimah t-shirt. I know, some of you does not even bother if it's a shirt, a blouse or whatsoever clothes you put on and you guys just wear and go to class as usual. However, to me, wearing something formal is necessary to go to class. I don't know why I'm like that. Besides, as future doctors (inshaAllah), shouldn't we train ourselves to be more formal than any other students? Again, I know you guys must see it as so nerdy to wear those shirt with ties and shoes etc, but hey, believe me you look even smarter and more handsome if you wear like that. Haha. Got my point? Truthfully, I don't really care what my friends are wearing as long as their clothes covering the aurat. That should be good enough for me. Enough nagging. InshaAllah, I will try to cover my aurat as perfectly as possible. The niat, intention, really should be to wear those clothes not to please human but to please Allah the Creator. :)

Next is I told mama about how nervous and scary I was to be in second year. HAHA. Funny ain't it? But then I also told her that I feel excited to be second year and that I can't wait to see juniors. Hehe. I bet that my contentment for juniors only lasts for this batch. To really get to know the juniors since we have lots of events that we as the second years have to handle first years or freshies. :) Big responsibility isn't it? Hopefully everything going on well. InshaAllah. Great news is also reaching me in which my roommate also manage to enter second year. Alhamdulillah. Allah, I'm so grateful for this.

Till then I guess.
Bye people. salam. :)

# semoga segala urusan dipermudahkanNya. Amin. InshaAllah. :)