tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16067901909287413222024-03-05T02:20:24.302-08:00fliesFairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.comBlogger48125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-36144506775413000282017-07-27T20:31:00.002-07:002017-07-27T20:31:55.943-07:00a letter to selfalmost afternoon.<br />
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i decided to write a letter to self.<br />
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if not now, i wonder when will it be. ma'a hifzillah.<br />
<br />
tarbiyah banyak mengubah.<br />
dari sebesar perkara ke sekecil perkara<br />
dari zaman muda ke zaman yang masih muda (tua, erghh)<br />
tapi tarbiyah Allah sentiasa yang baru.<br />
tarbiyah Allah sentiasa utk yg memang aku perlu.<br />
<br />
aku ni hina<br />
terlalu hina<br />
aib terlalu banyak<br />
tapi allah tolong jagakan<br />
aku tak layak utk syurga<br />
tapi Allah keep on kata syurga utk org yg nak<br />
aku selalu buat dosa<br />
mungkin orang tk sedar<br />
tapi itulah aib aku<br />
aku, takut acapkali aku buat dosa<br />
allah menarik nikmat kefahaman<br />
tarbiyah<br />
bukan aku je, tapi juga untuk anak2 usrah<br />
acapkali, yg aku doakan<br />
agar dosa2 ku tidak menjadi penghijab<br />
kpd kefahaman mereka<br />
<br />
selalu bila came across ayat tidak mengatakan apa yg kita sebut tu<br />
itu lah aku<br />
tapi aku sentiasa nak terus berusaha<br />
utk nak buat<br />
tapi seringkali tu jugak tewas<br />
tapi kadang2 perform juga<br />
itu lah life saya<br />
itu lah tarbiyah yang telah mencorakkan hidup saya<br />
aku saya kita awak<br />
dan ukhuwah lillahitaala tu<br />
bonus yang allah kasi<br />
and itu paling best<br />
<br />
sekian.Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-41978985748470935072016-11-19T06:16:00.001-08:002016-11-19T06:16:49.227-08:00November 19thSalam.<br />
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A new post.</div>
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After such a long idle.</div>
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Currently in final year of medicine. </div>
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Huhu.</div>
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Wish i can go to the other course.</div>
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But parents are too positive and suportive that i can go through this.</div>
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But i believe, </div>
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Allah has the best plan for me</div>
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Be sabr..</div>
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Allah, i want to be 2:30 and 51:56 forever till die let us meet.💕</div>
Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-76189405930681979912016-03-07T01:14:00.000-08:002016-03-07T01:14:10.493-08:00when heart is being strikeswhat the world meant to me.<br />
when things happened unexpectedly.<br />
time will prevail.<br />
hard time will pass.<br />
good thing will come.<br />
Allah is always here<br />
Within inside your heart.<br />
i am sorry<br />
things are not easy as i thought<br />
Allah gave the best thing to happen<br />
Allah gave the worst thing to happen<br />
to the right person<br />
see beyond the thing<br />
see to the most positive side we can be<br />
see till we found Allah.<br />
just don't be affected. too much.<br />
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:)<br />
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crying longing to Allah. always did that when hard time comes. but why when in tahajud, its not so feeling as when i did at the other waktu solat. but, ill try until i get. inshaAllah.<br />
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baiFairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-37989973536410816362015-07-19T06:42:00.001-07:002015-07-19T06:42:08.112-07:00Farewell Ramadhansalam and good day everyone.<br />
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Been only 3 days after ramadhan left, I already feel suffocated with the world. Not only the world, but me myself. Still juggling between the good and bad. Still juggling with emotion after ramadhan. May Allah accept my amal in ramadhan and may the momentum still be in the up up way mode. Ramadhan left, but not Allah. A really heart strikes for me.<br />
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Ramadhan. A different style and feeling felt this year. Could be due to better preparation prior to the month. Not that prepared much but at least there was as to compared to those previous years. Could be due to some rare occasion happened in life. Could be due to the challenge itself. I don't know. I think this is the first time that I care less enough to sahur and break the fast withh family. Huhuhu. Actually, this is the first time of being in Ramadhan and at the same time I'm acknowledging that I'm in tarbiyah. A wider spectrum shall I say. In terms of thoughts about tarbiyah and Ramadhan.<br />
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Will be continue later inshaAllah.Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-79294376754011349672015-02-26T05:35:00.003-08:002015-02-26T05:35:46.675-08:00deep insideI cried again<br />
Being the most ordinary human being<br />
You know why you're being tested<br />
You know Allah is testing you<br />
To see your iman<br />
To see where you will return to<br />
To see if you move forward or not<br />
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In the eyes of Allah<br />
I cried because I love them dearly<br />
That I cannot express my love for them<br />
That the choice to make<br />
Is not them<br />
Because Allah's love is even more for me<br />
Allah's love is greatest<br />
Allah's love is pure<br />
<br />
I seek Allah everytime I felt down<br />
Everytime I angry<br />
Everytime I miss someone<br />
Everytime people ignore me<br />
<br />
The best attention that I want to is<br />
Allah's attention<br />
I need no others<br />
When He knows you love other more than Him<br />
He took all of that<br />
He tested you<br />
He wants you to return to Him<br />
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And Allah is the only one we return toFairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-66831019854584680812014-12-16T04:02:00.000-08:002014-12-16T04:02:03.914-08:00it's decemberPerjalananku semakin cerah.<br />
cerah sebab aku tahu kenapa aku ada di atas muka bumi ni.<br />
kekuatan yg ada pada diri ini,<br />
datangnya drpd Dia.<br />
aku menjadi lebih kuat dari sebelumnya.<br />
sbb aku ada Dia.<br />
Al-quran dan Al-hadis.<br />
panduan hidup.<br />
manual kehidupan.<br />
seperti handphone.<br />
andai tiada manualnya,<br />
mana mungkin kita tahu<br />
macam mana nak guna.<br />
begitu juga kehidupan<br />
Al-quran dan Al-hadis.<br />
mengarah kita ke arah<br />
yang sepatutnya.<br />
which is akhirat<br />
dunia yg sementara<br />
penuh dgn suka ria,<br />
riang ria tawa manusia<br />
tapi di sebalik hati aku,<br />
andai nya semua tersedar<br />
adakah semua akan seperti itu lagi<br />
atau menjadi serius menuju pengakhiran<br />
arghhh kadang-kadang<br />
ingin bergelak sakan<br />
tapi,<br />
setiap masa<br />
setiap minit<br />
setiap saat<br />
semuanya utk Dia<br />
kadang-kadang terlalai<br />
istighfar pengubat hati yang duka lara<br />
<br />
:'(<br />
<br />
membawa manusia kepadaNya.<br />
sambil juga membawa diri kpd Nya juga.Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-78281245474901381802014-11-25T00:21:00.002-08:002014-11-25T00:21:39.757-08:00hi HanisHehehe.<br />
<br />
what a weird post.<br />
i dedicate this to hanis amirah.<br />
why her?<br />
cause i think she's the only one<br />
who took her time<br />
maybe not much<br />
but still she did<br />
to read my post<br />
because I didn't<br />
read yours hanis.<br />
nnt aku baca yaaa<br />
hehhe<br />
ok macam tah pape pulak<br />
hi hanis.<br />
lama tak jumpa.<br />
sihatkah?<br />
UM okay? haha<br />
study okay?<br />
hopefully all goes well for you<br />
and be close to Allah all the time okayy?<br />
:*<br />
jaga diri jaga iman<br />
;)<br />
<br />Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-81988239865424997092014-11-19T08:26:00.001-08:002014-11-19T08:27:18.049-08:008 months agoAssalamualaikum and good day everyone.<br />
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8 months ago.<br />
why is it like that in the first place.<br />
because 8 months ago,<br />
i lived in this world,<br />
without knowing<br />
or maybe purposely acting<br />
that i lived for nothing<br />
when actually that<br />
2:30 and 51:56 have been forgotten<br />
but now, please,<br />
Allah,<br />
hold me tightly,<br />
loose me never,<br />
to the jannah all the way,<br />
to go together and not alone,<br />
forgive all my sins,<br />
intentionally or unintentionally,<br />
for i am nothing without you.<br />
iman, please be fixed and go higher and higher,<br />
if you're down, still<br />
try to be higher up<br />
but when you're up there<br />
dont be riak,<br />
Allah does not like it<br />
I live for the sake of Allah<br />
from Allah I came,<br />
to Allah I return.<br />
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jazakillahu khoir. *hugs and kiss*Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-17826288594843535162014-07-07T05:56:00.000-07:002014-07-07T05:59:37.459-07:00Updating through IPADongggSalam.<br />
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I've left my blog like months. Sorry little diary. Alhamdulillah. For now, i still can update my blog. I still can type the keyboard still can think. All these nikmat from Allah. Alhamdulillah. I just finish browsing through my old blog. It is Ms Cubeaddicted. You guys cant read the blog though cause im privating the setting. Too many good memory and a bad one too in it. I wanted to search for this one kakak actually. But she's nowhere to be found. I followed her since PASUM. And now i have forgotten her name. I tried to recall her name. But it just not appear. It just doesn't come out. I wonder how is her life right now. Maybe already has a second children? Wherever she is, im praying that her life is good not only in this world but also in the hereafter.<br />
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I've passed my second year pro examination one. Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal. The even brighter side that i want to share is, ive join a circle again. This time with new perspective with new method of thinking, with new environment, inshaAllah, i'll try to grab and as soon as possible to let all people in this world know that Islam is beautiful. Islam has a paradise that is waiting for us to enter. Islam has Allah and Muhammad SAW as our God and prophet. Islam is beautiful. And i want to share it with you guys.<br />
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Just know that to enter jannah is easy and to enter hell is also easy. Dan sesungguhnya segala-galanya mudah bagi Allah. Ask him. And He will be ashamed to not granting his hamba's wish.<br />
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Allah, for giving me the faith. For leading me to the right path, for not leaving me alone. Thank you wa Alhamdulillah. Sesungguhnya hidupku, matiku, ibadahku hanyalah keranaMu ya Allah.<br />
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To murobbi ku, to ex-murabbi ku, to the usrahmate, to the ex-usrahmate, to the daurahmate, to the ex-daurahmate, Allah is giving me the bright path because He let me see the good in you. And indeed He knows best for me. InshaAllah.<br />
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Till then. Rasa best pulakkk menaip guna IPADoonggg. HHahaFairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-68932699071598813412014-03-31T20:34:00.002-07:002014-03-31T20:34:24.641-07:00It's April;)<br />
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Alhamdulillah. We're now in the fourth month of the year. Any significant? Haha. Obviously a no for me. However thinking more of it, hmm, am getting closer for my big exam which is Professional Exam I. It's o June. Did I mention before? Hmm. yes I did i think.<br />
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I don't know what to update. Just wanted to say, my holiday is about to end. Another 5 to 6 days left. Hmm. I feel like my life has been filled with some good stuff recently. Like it or not, I just love it. :)) With His guidance, oh Allah don't make me go astray. Amin. Lead me in right path. Amin. Make me strong.<br />
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Till then people. Some of my friends right now are battling in fight to pass the exam. Dear friends, may Allah ease you guys. InshaAllah. I know you guys can do it!! :))<br />
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*ps : I shall have listed out the subject that I should read. so that, there will be like guideline for me. so here it is*<br />
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First year, in first sem, modules are <span style="color: red;">cells and excitable tissue (C&ET), general anatomy & embryology (GA&E)</span>, <span style="color: yellow;">basic pharmacology (BP), biochemical, gene expression, human genetics</span>, <span style="color: purple;">basic pathology, microbiology, parasitology</span>. In Second sem, <span style="color: blue;">haematology, immunology</span>, <span style="color: magenta;">cardiovascular system (CVS), respiratory system (RS),</span> <span style="color: #38761d;">Gastrointestinal tract (GIT) system </span>and<span style="color: #38761d;"> urinary system (US). </span><br />
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Second year, first sem : <span style="color: red;">endocrine system, reproductive system</span>, <span style="color: orange;">musculoskeletal system, central nervous system (CNS),</span><span style="color: #741b47;"> public health, epidemiology and medical statistics. </span>In second sem , which is coming week, so i still have no idea what we're gonna study. so basically need to read the modules I've listed.<br />
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May Allah ease me and you. Amin. InshaAllah. :)<br />
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till then people. Salam.Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-15080708676422524772014-03-20T20:36:00.001-07:002014-03-20T20:44:06.105-07:00Happy FridaySo, today is Friday . I have another 2 weeks to spent and chillin' at home. Alhamdulillah for the holiday. For the rest that I get before things get busy. Before professional exam is coming. Oh yeah, I guess I should be ready for the exam. to read and understand again the facts . the exam is on Jun 9th,10th,11th. So, wish me luck here. :)))<br />
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Yesterday was the day where all form 5-er around country received what I call SPM result. SPM. ahhh already leaving that behind years ago. How long has it been since the day I got my result. It's been 4 years back. How time flies. I was in Semashur back then. Before that, I'd been in SMK Batu Unjur till form 4 then switch to boarding school. Allahu Rabbi. His plan is the greatest and yeah, the good old memories appearing right now. (even the bad one too)<br />
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My SPM result I shall say was quite good and excellent and Alhamdulillah right now, I've become and enter, pursueing my study in what I wanted the most, medic. Strangely though that my mind wasn't thinking of taking medic in the first place when I was much younger. But soon when form 4 came and I learnt bio, that's where I think I want to study medic because it's all about human. Back then, even in bio we have to learn about trees, the osmosis inside the leaf, the adherence etc. I thought that was so dry to study about. ye know, like to learn them, they are not moving yet we still learn them. If you get what I mean. So starting from that, I have always dream to be a doctor because I want to study about human. (there's a story about human here)<br />
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Little did I know that being into medicine is not to study about human only but you also have to know the right decision. (in fact, many things will you learn while being in this field) The life of people that we treated is in our hand. Wrong steps or any mistakes could lead to a real end of the world for the patient or could take them to even higher risk. Allahu Rabbi. In this journey, I shall know that I'm getting even closer to HIM. His creations are simply amazing. Everyday, I'm dealing with His creation. SubhanaAllah.<br />
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I still remember vividly how one of my lecturer shared with us how she could become a pathologist. It was all because she felt really amazing and simply amazed by Allah's creation when she saw and think that "mashaAllah, simply because of changes in one cell, it could get people to be sick" She told us how amazed she became and that's why she pursue into pathology field. It's like she likes it when she see the cell under microscope and appreciate for what it is.<br />
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Quite interesting, isn't it? I told you I have some story on human. Last week I was in my first-time-after-such-a-long-time gathering. A sis who was at that time gave the content, she suddenly asked us. Do you know what is human made up of. For Allah's sake, that's even the first time I thought. Okay maybe not the first time. But hey, the think is, what made me even got the headache is that, when we shouted out our answer like "from setitis air mani, then into segumpal darah", some got answered "from tanah" however the answers don't satisfied her. Then, since I'm the only one taking medicine, she kinda bash me laaa , like, here got one person study human but don't know how the human is created. *relax readers, relax. I felt like whatttt. huhu. Really, the moral here is doesn't mean you study medic , you will know everything about human. :( got to learn more. There's more than this in Quran.<br />
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That's really an eye opener for me actually. Then she told us again. The answer is inside Quran. There is answer here. So, she told us, the answer is in Surah Al-Isra' and surah Al-Hijr. I've indeed look for the answers in these two surah. Alhamdulillah I found the answer in the latter. Somehow I have to search the answer again surah Al-Isra'. The exact answer is there. Well, I have a question on this basis and should ask this further to that sis. InshaAllah in the next gathering.<br />
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Ohh I felt like I should share with you guys what have I gained from the meeting. :))<br />
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Basically, we've been told of the downs of the Ummah. How the recent concert tragedy had really big impact on us. The death (may Allah forgive them), they were part of our relatives. One of the death even is as the same age as me. Allahu Rabbi, may Allah protect us from whatever harm coming into our lives. Then, the sis also got to share with us video in youtube . The video took about 30 mins. Ahhh I forgot what is the title of it but generally, it tells us about ummah in the whole world. How is my relative doing over there in Palestin, Mesir, Syria, Algeria and many more countries where the ummah is Muslim and they are suffering.<br />
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This kind of video may have plenty times played in front of our eyes, but what I'm getting here is what should we do as muslim to help our sisters and brothers. We, indeed have huge responsibility. Hopefully me myself could carry it out in the right way. inshaAllah. you too dear readers. :))<br />
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till then. I wrote really. really long. and I wonder if ever one of you finish reading this. okay.<br />
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got to go now. hopefully. I got to share more beneficial things to you guys. inshaAllah. :))Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-87380258960110570542014-03-20T07:20:00.002-07:002014-03-20T07:20:39.301-07:00AgainIn the last few days, or few weeks, my heart has been filled by something. Ohh. It is something that really meant to me. It's another call from Him to get me to work out and go to Him only after I done what I'm supposed to do. <div>
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So nice of her to still thinking of me. :') To still look out and find the right person to pass me on. Allahu Rabbi. Me myself, I long to have this gathering again. I long to have the feeling again. I long to do things that we, muslims should do. </div>
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You know, me myself already has adik-adik. Hopefully, I could give them what I should give. And to give, I must first get. So, may everything that I get from the gathering, will I share it to them. </div>
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To see people in their own circle. I envied them, truthfully. However, I'm happy at the same time because I know, this people, they are in their way to find , to have Allah's blessing. Hopefully with the good things around me, I could also do the same to my adik-adik. </div>
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Hopefully everything I do will only because of Allah. </div>
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May Allah ease everything. :)))</div>
Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-70316370104046436022014-03-09T23:56:00.001-07:002014-03-09T23:56:25.841-07:00One MonthSalam. :)<br />
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Alhamdulillah. Exam has ended and I have full 3 weeks of holidays. yeayyyy @_@ . Hopefully I can spend my time wisely during this time. InshaAllah. Regarding final exam. Allah, I have done my best. And now I let everything for You to handle. Bismillahitawakaltu'alallah. It's actually a mix of feelings y'know. Im happy it has ended. Im scared for the results. InshaAllah everything will turn out okay. Allah knows Best , Fairuz.<br />
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So, now I'm officially finish 3rd sem. Going into 4th sem within a month. Going to face pro-exam I. Pray for me people. When is you guys pro exam? Actually not really official since the result is not out yet. It's coming out this Wednesday for Viva result and then full result would be this Friday. Hopefully all is well. InshaAllah. :)<br />
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What I wanted to do during this holidays? Let's list out some.<br />
1. I want to compensate all my sleep. Like seriously although I slept the earliest among my friends but somehow on the last two days, I slept at 2 am and wakes up 5.30 am. Guess my body never get used to it since my body clock has always been 11.30 to 12.00 until 5.30-6.00 am. hehe<br />
2. I want to read. Hopefully I can finish reading the books I brought back home. I bought 3 of them during big bad wolf. And also, another book about Presiden Morsi. Yeah, I should be a reader. One of my friends once said, a good leader arise from those who read. So yeah, can you see my point? InshaAllah.<br />
3. Cleaning up the house and try to make things easier for mama at home. Since me and my adik perempuan, we're both staying at hostel, mama is all alone washing and cleaning up all stuff at home. I know ayah has been really helpful to mama and now, it's time to help them. They have had enough while working, I mean you know, they have been tired and exhausted from working all day from 7 to 5. So, I must help them and should be able to help them since I'm staying home only. inshaAllah.<br />
4. This last one, I'm not sure whether I can do it like everyday or when I have the mood to do so. It's cooking. When I were on my break period between form 5 until going into asasi, I did cook for family. For adik-adik lah kan. They're all coming back home in the afternoon and I was like the housewife on action and cooked for them. Huhuu. I reckon that was the most rajin I can be in order to cook. But now, things have changed. Since I've living in hostels and only get home by weekend, I rarely cook and only on the weekend I help little little bit with mama as the chef. So, cooking is really not into me right now. but I'll try to do it. InshaAllah.<br />
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So, apart from these above, I think the basic routine of our life like pray on time, reading quran, listen to good stuff like listen to da'wah thing etc, that should never once be missed. Allah, I need You to give me strength in order to do all these. Istiqamah it is. InshaAllah. Let's be istiqamah. =)<br />
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Lastly, it's about MAS MH370, the missing flight. Allah, wherever they are, may You provide them the safety, the assurance of being back alive and Allah, You knows best. InshaAllah.<br />
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Till then people. #prayforMH370Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-81058804808258689272014-02-08T11:15:00.001-08:002014-02-08T11:15:40.211-08:00the man who decidedto change at the 12th hour dies on the 11th.<br />
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Salam.<br />
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I just discovered that I understand this phrase only now. I used to heard this phrase but I barely get the meaning. but now, I really understand what it meant. How when we think we could have the time to change on let say on this particular period, but we never knew whether we able to reach that point of time or not, where Allah may have take our soul first and we don't even have the chance to change.<br />
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Thus, moral of the story, don't wait until the time comes when it doesn't even bother to wait us. To change, just change and be istiqamah with it. InshaAllah. Allah will help.<br />
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So this post is mainly dedicated for this person. kak Mumtazah Maridi. She is one of the most people that touched my soul. She told me about Islam. She's one of person that made me embrace Islam even more. Make me know Islam is not about practicing only but also delivering da'wah to others. That is when I know that we have another huge responsibility to hold and to carry out that thing. She's superb in her own way, may Allah have His Mercy on her. And I believe she's in jannah right now. Deserving what's her right and Allah, this person that you have taken the soul, may her soul be with orang2 yg beriman dan bertakwa..Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-91631403074819456332014-01-31T00:15:00.000-08:002014-01-31T07:35:07.717-08:00Random*edited<br />
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Hey world. whats up? I've been good. Holidays right now. Thanks to Chinese New Year I get to rest for 5 days. Weeee. Okay, currently my module is epidemiology. You know, we learn about the illness that is not only happen in certain part but also worldwide. Recently my group, we had to present SARS for Communicable Disease and Stroke for Non-Communicable Disease. </div>
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Ohh I don't know what else to write. Okay, now let us feel thankful and grateful for everything that happen around us. The sky, the weather, the easiness, the happiness we have, the laughter, family, and so many things I believe that give u, me happiness and feeling blessed. As for me, able to gain new knowledge and able to apply it in life, is a really bless from Allah. He gives me a lot. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah and Alhamdulillah. I know what I should now. Just stay positive, be positive and be one. InshaAllah. </div>
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Oh I just realized that I last update my blog like 15 days ago. and this is my last post for january 2014. Allah. Although time flies (sure it is) , so do everything. Not literally fly but every seconds there were something happen and until now, what am I doing? Updating this blog again. Huhu. Allah, sometimes I feel like the thing that I write here, isn't suppose to be published, or is it not? Some of my rants, they are really really rants and actually I don't write a lot pun. I just say few words and I save it and publish it and ta-daaaa, my new post. =='<br />
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The fact that is sure is that, most of time, I spent on studying. Going, sitting and listening to lectures, doing SCL (student centered learning kinda tutorial), revising etc. Yes, I do feel like I'm using my time wisely. However, hopefully, I could also not only surviving the world but also Akhirat. May Allah bless me in whatever am doing, and also for you guys. May we get what we want and may we never go astray and Allah is the Best Listener. What I'm trying to say here is that, I want to balance my both duniawi and ukhrawi. Never say that you don't have time for akhirat because Allah is always preparing you the time. It's just we that don't know, don't realize how we could afford to do both at the same time. For example, very easy, you can start everything with Bismillah. And Niat, your intention to do it because of Allah. There you go, not only achieving the world excellency but also akhirat. inshaAllah. :)<br />
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I can hear laughter outside of my room right now. Maharaja Lawak Mega is airing right now. This week is 12th week. I watched just now and yeah, they are fun. But I guess, right now, is even more fun because they laugh overly out loud over there. I heard my sister and brotherrrr...Arghhh, I just want to go and see what happen but I also wanted to continue this. Hehe. Sure tomorrow there will be somebody posted up on internet. Can just watch online tomorrow.<br />
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#mood to revise endocrine module is on. InshaAllah. Final exam is in a month. Should start revising early. May Allah ease my journey. Amin. ;)</div>
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just finish another camp.<br />
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may everything that had happened has the big impact in my life.<br />
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Since we're in our second years, we were the one organizing the event and first years as the participants. Alhamdulillah everything went well and most of the time, me and my friends, we took a lot of photos and we enjoyed ourself there. Hopefully, there is something to learn by heart in the midst of joyous and playfulness of us while being there. I get to play the river for an hour ? or less since me as AJK Makanan, we had to you know, be punctual about serving and preparing the food. My teamwork with the rest of AJKs is great. I like it when we able to finish preparing the food before they got to eat. The ukhuwah we built there, may will be long lasting. inshaAllah.<br />
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This coming friday is a rest day for me and friends. Since Thaipusam fall on that day, we get the benefits by getting one day off from lectures and whatsoever. So, tomorrow, me is going back home. yeayy. Rasa macam da lama tak balik. Padahal baru 3 minggu yang lepas balik. Huhu.<br />
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K lah, goodbye peeps. May Allah bless us everytime, every second and moment of our life. InshaAllah. :)Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-46440105461514648122013-12-23T04:29:00.001-08:002013-12-23T04:29:14.962-08:00Storm and Rainbow, they are part of our lifeAdat kehidupan mungkin<br />
Orang datang dan pergi dalam kehidupan kita<br />
Kedatangan mereka mungkin<br />
Mendatangkan seribu satu pembaharuan<br />
Mendatangkan mudarat<br />
Memberi kesan kepada seorang<br />
Natijahnya,<br />
Semoga segala yang datang dan pergi<br />
Memberi kebaikan dan manfaat<br />
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#secebis rasaFairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-61466815570107006192013-12-19T05:34:00.001-08:002013-12-19T05:34:20.807-08:00Allah I wanna Thank YouSalam. Hey people! I can't wait to finish my studies and be a doctor. May I able to help people with my knowledge. I'm inspired with the videos made by my senior in youtube. She did her speech during convocation and her speech made me cried. Tears falling. T.T After 5 years of studying, she has become what she really wanted the most. InshaAllah my turn will come soon. InshaAllah.Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-14269791262555516842013-12-17T22:07:00.001-08:002013-12-17T22:07:39.504-08:00Bola TamparAssalamualaikum kawan-kawan. :)<br />
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I just finish my last class with Sir Arshad of Bola Tampar. Hooooooo.. Okay, I join this bola tampar because this is kokurikulum that we have to take. Of course there is many other sports I can join but the fate is, I ended up in bola tampar. Alhamdulillah. This choice is indeed the best choice i've choosen. Sir Arshad, he is really very understanding all of us. Though we do little bit here and there of mistakes but he is still cool and yeahh AWESOME. Allah led me to this club and Allah too let me feels all this feeling of joyous and grateful and fun and so many things. Since I have quite some free time, (my class just now is only at 8-9am, and today we finish early.weeeeee) I got to update this thing since the internet is speedy his way to me, hahah and now, relaxingly updating the blog about it. :))))))) *can you see the smile there. A lot isn't it? That shows my feeling of excitedness. perhaps it's more than that. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. :)<br />
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Okay, now, my roommate is here. guess will update later since I'm a bit shy to update my blog in front of her. hehe. Senyap-senyap sudehhh. :)Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-30411282357530118902013-12-15T07:10:00.002-08:002013-12-15T07:10:47.645-08:00Latest Onesalam. :)<br />
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Hai hai hai everyone. These days had been easy days for me to get connected to internet. say what? didn't I previously complained on how much I can't access the net but somehow things changed. Huuu, today is sunday and of course tomorrow is monday. Monday blues around me? ohhh yes. but somehow the spirit is here. the spirit to study and not to let go of the knowledge and still able to bear with the latest and newest knowledge tomorrow. Ohh, I have abandon my blog since last month? I know I'm a bit on and off person so things been the same for the blog. I've been like biscuits just floating for one moment and then sinking deep to bottom. :) However, life is still the same. Housemates too. Just the flow is different. Sometimes things are too harsh and intense but sometimes , we are so free and have time to enjoy and relax. Allah. Alhamdulillah.<br />
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Arinah Halim. She was my friend in Semashur. She was my classmates and last two weeks, she left us. Allah has taken her for good. InshaAllah. As far as I can remember, we barely talk back then. I smiled at her and she smiled me back. The only moment we had is that when she met me saying "Ain dah pecah kan sudu kau..." that is the only moment I can remember where we have a little conversation. Back then, she was a smart and top student. My du'a is always for her. InshaAllah, dia berada dalam kalangan orang yang soleh dan solehah. Amin. To be frank, I'm a little taken aback with this news. She's so young and only 20. Allah, sesungguhnya the death is near and for sure each of us will face it. May our last moment be in good one. InshaAllah. :)<br />
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Hey, you guys know what, I followed tajweed class here in my 17th College of UPM. Allah, I have always thought that my reading is okay I reckon but then, when I read in front of Ustaz, he corrected me like few times. Until one moment I felt like laughing because my mouth felt very tired?no i don't know how to describe it but just felt like to laugh. Now only I know that my reading is not as good as I thought it was. The learning process has always been interesting, intriguing. Ustaz also has great bacaan and as always, I hope I can improve mine as we go through it. InshaAllah. :)<br />
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What else to say? I'm in my almost end of first semester of 2nd year. Hopefully all of us will be a good doctor. InshaAllah. 3 years to go. I can't wait to go to hospital next year. InshaAllah. :) My friends, don't give up. Allah is always near. Ask Allah anything, He hears you, you know? till then. I like to write. May we able to balance our life. Not only to study but also to do ibadah and not forgetting akhirat in anything we do. :)<br />
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salam lovelies. :)<br />
till we meet again.Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-20009370569694998072013-11-22T05:45:00.000-08:002013-11-22T05:45:06.094-08:00The Tears of JoyAssalamualaikum wbt! :)<br />
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Hey we meet again! :) Alhamdulillah, assessment had just over yesterday.~~<br />
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Allah, I just read about this guy named Ammar. Allahu. We're at the same age 20. However, his story, has touched my heart. Allah has taken him for good. InshaAllah. :')<br />
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Allah, may everything that I did, that I will do, will have your redha. :')<br />
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I am happy but at the same time envy of him. InshaAllah, we'll have the chance of doing the same. InshaAllah.<br />
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Salam.Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-88437756171444482182013-11-16T05:57:00.000-08:002013-11-16T05:57:26.461-08:00Even the Cats are MeowingAssalamualaikum wbt. :)<br />
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What's up everyone. Next Thursday I'll have my MS assessment. So yeah basically in a marathon to finish all the lecture notes. Like what I did during previous assessment. I still have tonnes of load to be finished. Yet too many tests are upcoming such as the tocie ( english test for those who got band 3 for muet ) and bola tampar also got test. They want us to hit the ball and make sure it fits the correct position. Full marks will be given to those hit the target. I'm not so good in bola tampar but I can play. I can hit and get the ball to the other side of court.<br />
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Once I used to get attached to da'wah thing. I used to being brainwashed when we had our usrah. But the brainwashing is not like a torture or something, it is something that made you feel really low and deserves nothing but punishment because of the bad things you did. Allah, somehow I don't know why I feel very empty after those moments had passed. :( When I read about their journey and their feelings on this particular thing, I feel envious and I wanted to join them. However, I know there is still many other doors that can lead me to this. InshaAllah. I'll always pray for them.<br />
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For me, their presence have such a high value to me. They are precious to me. They cause me to open my eyes wide open and thought about Islam. Practices what you should practice and others. Oh. Alhamdulillah. And now, even my surrounding friends, they practice Islam. They do what Islam, what Allah SWT and Rasulullah SAW ask to do. Indeed, Allah has sent me so many things through them. I think and I thought of it as it comes from Allah. All the good things, the bad things, they have valued in it which I think Allah wants me this way, Allah wants me that way, etc.<br />
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I am very keen to have knowledge. Who doesn't right? If can, I want to know every bits and bite of any knowledge in the world. I just like to have the knowledge. I am. To some extent, sometimes I feel like I'm so greedy but at the same time the spirit is not there. The enthusiasm is absent. The feeling of getting new knowledge disappear. Apparently, human being is just a human being. They have their own ups and downs. High spirit and low spirit. Happy time and moody time.<br />
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And me, I am in the middle of the ocean wave. Being carried by the wave, however, I have faith in Him. May He leads me to the right destination. Will never stop asking help from Him. Indeed.<br />
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Hey pals. My holidays is about to end. :'( Guess, some of you are same as me. Well, some works given beforehand are still the same as when I first got them. OMG, I haven't touch them. Will do after this, InshaAllah. :)<br />
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I actually wanted to update this blog like half an hour ago? but it was delayed since I read <a href="http://frozensapphire09.wordpress.com/that-night/" target="_blank">this piece</a> of writing by Amy Shakirah Furzane. Go read if you have time. She wrote this once she got inspired by her favorite writer, Nicholas Spark. After finishing read his book entitled ........ *sorry I don't remember. Speaking of him, to me, Nicholas' pieces are overwhelming since the story that he brought up mostly are romance. Well, maybe a touching one too? As hard as I can remember, I never read any of his books. But what I did was just read few pages of friends' book back then. I remember my friend who is a guy telling me that he cried when he watched the movie, A Walk To Remember. I was like, whoahhhh, is the story so touching that even a man can cry? So yeah, the story did touch my heart too actually. Hahaha, I'm sorry that I sound like haven't seen the movie/ I don't know anything but when actually I already did. As far as I can remember, I didn't cry watching that movie. Maybe because I'm not into the movie?<br />
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Whatever it is. Time flies really fast. I feel like doing everything at the same time but also feeling like doing nothing. Allah. Help me go through this life with your guidance. Don't ever let me decide my own ways. Indeed the best is coming from You.<br />
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By the way, my friend I mentioned above is Pop. Ya Allah, what's his full name. Let me check his FB. Oh yeah, Amirul Fitri. He's in Mesir right now. Currently studies medicine. I wonder what he's up to now. He was my groupmate when we were in PASUM. One of the four heroes. HAHAHA. ewww, geli lah pulak calling them heroes. Whatever-lah. PASUM is always been in my heart. There's always a space I provide there specially for PASUM. :)<br />
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# Let's get the study mood again. Playing time is over.Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606790190928741322.post-33065144221934716432013-11-06T04:51:00.004-08:002013-11-06T05:04:08.792-08:00FriendshipAssalamualaikum wbt.<br />
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Apa kabo semua? sihat dok? Alhamdulillah, ore sihat kat sini. Ore baru jah pah abih jale kelate. Pusing kelate slamo 3 hari gok la. Alhamdulillah. Kita ore semo slmt kelik and smpi smulo kat tmpt masing2. Sbnrnyo kalo tak da saing dari kelate, tak g jgok ke sano. Tp sbb ade, 3 ore plop tu.. haha, 3 hari kat sano dah bule kecek kelate. huhuuu. Haha. maaf deh kalo ore tulis ejaan ni salo, ore tak tahu plop nk eje, tp kalo kecek tu bule la ckit2. Haha</div>
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AHA!! So, what can you determine from the paragraph above? I went to KELANTAN!!! YEAYYYY correct! ;)))) We went there for 3 days 2 nights trip. We spent our first night in Alya's house and second night on Min's. We took lots of picture for sure. We smile, we laugh, we had fun. Thanks to Allah for giving these ni'mat. Alhamdulillah. Oh My God, I can guarantee you that you'll get more layers of fat if you stay longer in Kelantan, especially if you're lazy to exercise. Don't get me wrong, I'm saying this just because I'm not get used to the food. The food in Kelantan is really taste sweet. It's 3 times sweeter than usual or maybe more? Since most of us don't get used to that high level of sweetness, thanks to Min and Alya for reducing the sweetness of the food so that we can eat peacefully and gracefully without complaining. Ehehhh. :P</div>
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Somehow, I can adapt to the food sweetness by the time the 3rd day had arrived. I ate laksam and surprisingly I don't complain it to be sweet. But, when my other friends have little taste and they told me, 'manisnya Min!!!' , so I probably can accept that sweetness? erk, maybe? </div>
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My transportation to this city of Cik Siti Wan Kembang is via airplane, Air Asia now everyone can fly. Huhu. We're so lucky to get the low price ticket when they have just promote the price. So people, grab the chance to have the ticket at low prices. Keep updated with Air Asia's website. Eh, like a promoter here. However, it's not me who bought the ticket. It was my friend, Rasyidah that get the tickets for us. Furthermore, she bought the ticket online and also made payment online via CIMB click. Again, if you have CIMB click, your life will get easier. Everything is at your fingertips. :D Haha, me is sad. I'm promoting this but I don't have one. Just because I don't know how to activate and also I don't have any money in my CIMB account. :'(</div>
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On this journey, Zimah and Syabi couldn't make it for they have their own solid reasons. It's okay, we'll bring them on to the next trip. Surely, they will be forced by me if they don't want to. grrrrr.. :PPP </div>
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Huhu, long story short. There is a sad story throughout this trip. The story is about pictures. Lots of pictures diminished, disappeared the moment Min insert memory card to her phones. Yeah, since none of us bring camera, we took those photos with camera phone, especially Min's phone. But when the kakak who inserted the memory card into her phone, she deleted / formated the phone causing all the storage to be gone. :'((( sad sad sad. Frustrated. It is definitely a lie if somebody say that they are okay with what had happened. Me too, feel sad and frustrated. Somehow to get the emotion stable, what we can do is istighfar and be positive. Allah must has prepared something better for us. InshaAllah. :')</div>
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Since this is the first trip of us, housemates to Kelantan, maybe next trip to I-don't-know-where will be on next semester? Haha. Just saying. We definitely will go to other places, if Allah wills. InshaAllah. :D Sleep over to friends house that is hundreds mile apart from home is one of the sweetest thing happen to me. Alhamdulillah. As a remarks, I wanted to write that I'm glad we could go to a long trip though we took plane and that shortened the journey like 90% of 9 hours? And that is in our year 2. More upcoming trips to be enjoyed next. InshaAllah. heeeheeee</div>
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Oh ya, there is one more thing I wanted you guys to do. Please sedekahkan Al-Fatihah for my nenek saudara that had left us 2 days ago. Al-fatihah. Semoga rohnya berada dalam kalangan orang yang beriman. Mudah-mudahan. InshaAllah. </div>
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So, that's it people. Story of my life.<br />
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Salam. :)Fairuz Mahamodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04142467201272497612noreply@blogger.com0